Transvestia

do not remember the first years of my life but it al- ways thrilled me to see several pictures of myself at about a year of age wearing a dress and with my hair long. After that I guess I dressed as any little boy did except that my mother would not buy me a pair of long pants until I entered high school. I entered high school at the tender age of twelve, having skipped two grades and graduated at fifteen. I had no trouble with my grades but being two years younger than my class- mates left me less adept at physical activities than they. I don't know whether this helped influence the fact but for as long as I can remember I had wished that I had been born a girl. It seemed that girls got to do all the things that I wished I could do and was forbidden to do and the boys were always doing the rough things that I didn't want to do or wasn't physi- cally able to do as well. During these early years my nightly prayers always ended with the pharse, "Please God make me into a girl." Not being fully aware of the sexual differences, it was not until I was quite old that I realized this was not possible. In those days I believed that I was the only person alive who felt the way I did.

I soon found myself dressing in my mother's clothes whenever the opportunity presented itself, that is, whenever I thought I wouldn't be caught. I remember on several occasions talking my brothers in- to gettigg dressed up also, "just to see what we looked like." Whether this led them to any TV tendencies, I do not know as I have never discussed myself or TV with them.

One evening during my first year of high school my parents were invited to a "turnabout Party". This thought thrilled me no end. My mother made a dress for my father to wear to the party. It had a red skirt with a white peasant blouse and after it was over I secretly took it out and kept it for several years wearing it and some under things I managed to accumu- late, whenever the occasion presented itself. As I had my own room with an outside door, the occasion for dressing soon came every night, and after every one was in bed would slip out and walk around. About this time I came into the possession of an old sewing

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